everytime

every time i call her shes always busy. i mean no matter when i call her. and when i tell her that she thinks im trying to argue with her. but im not. its jus a little fustrating and irritating. i thot i told myself i was over her. man wat the hell is wrong with me? now comes the biggest decision wether or not im gonna see her on leave. and im leaning more towards yes im gonna see her. but is that really the right decision? like if she cant make time for me now or be with me now then why should she deserve my time when im home? so im in a huge dilemma. i need to figure this out soon. i need to get over her. its done and over with. theres nothing there nor is anything gonna happen. i just need to get that through my head. its jus so hard cause i love her so much. but treat others like you wanna be treated. if you want me to spend time with you then spend some of your time on me. ya kno? but anyways, her excuse for being busy was because her family was here. but wen we were on the phone she was hardly talking to me. she seemed busy and distracted the whole time i was trying to talk to her. and what about all the times before today? its like really? jus admit it. stop making excuses. but whatever. i jus need to think about wat to do soon. i hope i make the right decision. wish me luck