holy shit

alright, so i havent written in a while because ive been working a lot and just been plain lazy. but anyways so much shit has happened. alright so first of all im still having the same problems with the same girl. its just the same shit but a different day. but its all good tho cause im leaving it in the past. as much as it hurts, i just cant keep goin on with it. its gonna stop here. in fact i stopped about a week ago. but anyways she told me she couldnt do it anymore cause its too hard. but last time i checked i thot that if u really loved and cared about someone like u say you do then you would do everything and anything to be with that person.but i guess im wrong. maybe there was jus nothing ever there from the begining. but u kno wat? fuck it. im over it already. her lost. ok the other thing is that a good friend of mine had sex with this other dude. and she knows i hate that shit. i told her from the get go i dont swing that way. and she did it anyways. so she just ruined everything. so im done with her too. but yet she still wants to talk to me and shit like nothing happened. bitch please. but whats the most shocking thing that has happened was that this girl from my past is back. idk how it happened or if this is even all real but its happening. idk if im just a rebound or if its the real deal. but im really starting to like her a lot again. im jus scared on wats gonna happen cause ive been hurt too many times already. and if im just her rebound, thatll put me over the edge. but she makes me so happy wen we talk. shes chill and just a great person to talk to. which is why i need to go on leave asap. i need to get home. well ill keep u more informed. till then, laterz