should i or shouldnt i?

ok so for the past week or so, i havent talked to her. the last time i talked to her was the day i asked her to call me. she then asked if i could call her instead so that i would be able to wake her up. so i did call her that morning and she didnt pick up. i called her multiple times but still no answer. i even texted her and still got no response. so i was a little angry at her. then she decides to message me on facebook via chat and was pretending things were ok. but i was still mad at her so i didnt really talk to her. her excuse for not talking to me were she was too busy in the morning and she got high and didnt wanna talk to me when she was high. so i jus decided not to talk to her. not just because of what happened but because i feel i need to move on. im tired of being stuck in this situation. im tired of still wanting and hoping. i jus need to be strong and do whats good for me. if she doesnt wanna be together and wants to be with other peope then fine. im not gonna stay mad at her. its her life and she wants to live it the way she wants. and im not gonna sit around waiting for her. as much as i want to and my hearts telling me to i just cant do it anymore. ive been wondering what shes been up to lately. everytime i see her online my heart beats faster and faster. i get his feeling where i just wanna see what shes been up to or how shes doing. i get this urge to call her or txt her almost every minute of the day. its been so hard to not talk to her. but like she said one of needs to move on. and as much as i hate it to be me, i have to. i love her more than she’ll ever know but this isnt gonna work. i know what i want, but she doesnt know what she wants. shes still really young. i jst need to accept that and move on. so i guess im just gonna need to keep fighthing this urge off. ive come so far already, i cant give in. only if she knew…