old letter #2

hey babe. i us tried calling you but your a butt and are asleep right now. but anyways i us called one of my friends who us left today and he said that our orders are going to change forsure. he was lucky and got to stay here in yongson. but the other guys are in area 4 down further south which is pretty nice. but im hoping i don’t get stationed in area 1 up at the DMZ. im hella scared and nervous now. this sucks. thats like all im going to be thinking about now. fuckkkk. man this is gay. but anyways i hella miss you. and lately we haven’t really been able to talk. :( but hopefully ill have a better schedule so we can actually talk and skip eachother. haha. it made me sad when i was skyping you but it also made me happy. at least i got to see you and stuff. man i miss you so much. i jus wanna cuddle an hug you right now and not let go. but i cant. this whole korea thing is a lot harder than i thought it was gonna be. and it hasnt even really started. i was hella thinking last night and if we realy want this to work were really gonna need to be strong. cause its jus getting harder and harder as each day passes. 6 months feel like eternity. and i jus want it to be all over so i can be at home with you. i wish you were here with me! life would be so much easier. haha. but are you still willing to try? do you still feel the same? and remember, i want you to be able to tell me anything. and tell me at the begining please or sooner. i really dont want to lose you. and i understand we cant make promises. but i love you so much and i miss you like crazy!!! i had a dream last night that we were married and we live together. haha. it was crazy! lol. but wen i woke up, i was happy. then i realized it was a dream. haha. then it sucked wen i realized just how far i was from you. i cant be;ieve im half way around the world right now. it doesnt feel like it, but if i really think about it, it sucks. i cant wait for my tour to be over. hopefully we’ll be together and live happily ever after. lol. but yeah im stressing hella hard right now about where i might be going tomorrow. i thought i was in the clear. but now it all comes down to tomorrow. hopefully all goes well and im either going to be sttioned here in yongson or in areas 3 or 4 and not in area 1 which is the DMZ. haha. cause that would really suck some ass. ok well im gonna go now. hopefully we can talk tomorrw. i love you so much babe. and you mean so much to me. dont ever forget that. tke, be safe and be smart please. i love you so much babe. ill ttyl. i love you!!!!