October 2010
8 posts
why now?
i dont know why, but recently, ive been thinking about her more than usual. i mean i think about her a little everyday, but for some reason this past week or so ive really been thinking about her. and its driving me crazy. because everytime i get into depth about her, i think wayy back. from when things first started. from all our great adventures. to us jus chilling and talking. then i think...
“” i think it happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you...”
coming back to hit me
I LOVED YOU. MORE THAN ANYTHING.
hate or understand
idk wether to hate your guts or to understand where your coming from. i mean i understand where your coming from, i just dont get why. i dont get how u say were perfect for each other. how you say your in love with me. how u say you care so much about me. but then not want to be with me. i mean i understand im far away. i understand i cant BE THERE with you. but distance shoudnt matter. if your...
“People told me slow my roll I’m screaming out fuck that”
“Life’s a bitch, naw, better yet a dumb broad”
“We walk the same path, but got on different shoes
Live in the same building,...”
“Life is a beach, I’m just playin’ in the sand”
September 2010
5 posts
MUSIC
╔══╗♫♪ ║██║ ║(O)║ ╚══╝ Routine
real real shitty
alright so the combination of being homesick, missing the person i love and failing this PT test really fucking sucks. feeling hella down and shit. i know i can pass the PT tes, i jus dont know what the fuck happened. im hella disappointed in myself. im a big fucking mess right now. i need to really sit down and sort out my priorities. i need to really hand my shit.
korea, AGAIN!
so im finally back from leave. leave was pretty fun. i still have no idea what the hell i did my first week home. it hella felt like a waste of days. i wished i would have went this week and left next week. but oh well. fuck it. i still had fun on leave. got my heart broken yet again. i let my guard down and i got hurt yet again. its what ever though. im for sure done this time. she did me hella...
damnnnnnnnn
ok so ive been home for a week and a hald and i have basicly 3 days left. i did absolutly evrything i said i wouldnt. kinda dissappointed. but ill catch up more laterrrrr.
3
so basicly i have 3 days left till i bounce outta korea for a little bit and go home. and the days are just going by oh so slow. its like in basic wen i was waiting for christmas or excedus family day or graduation. the days are killing me. i jus want it to be the 5th already so i can be home. please let these days go by faster so i can get the hell outta here.
August 2010
10 posts
going by slowwww
the days seem to be going by even slower. im getting so excited. everytime i think about it i cant help but smile. i cant wait to go home on leave. hopefully these days go by fast. only 9 more days till i leave. and im getting more and more anxious by the minute. so many things i wanna do when i get home. so many people i wanna see. im scared i wont be bale to do everything or see everyone. i...
ticket!!!
so i bought my ticket like 2 days ago to go home. im just praying everything works out and nothing bad happens. i just wanna make it home to see my friends and family. i need to getout of korea for a little while. i need to gain some sanity back. so PLEASE dont let anything bad happen. PLEASE!!!
eeeeeyuckkkkkkk
dude your hella GROSS!!!!!!! ahahahahaha
forsure
im forsure not seeing you now. now that i heard some shit. hahaha.
over it
im finally over you. and oh does it feel os so good. not seeing your more than once when im home. your lost dude. ahahaha. dont have time for ppl that dont make time for me. so duces to you!
everytime
every time i call her shes always busy. i mean no matter when i call her. and when i tell her that she thinks im trying to argue with her. but im not. its jus a little fustrating and irritating. i thot i told myself i was over her. man wat the hell is wrong with me? now comes the biggest decision wether or not im gonna see her on leave. and im leaning more towards yes im gonna see her. but is that...
that time
alright so its that time of the year. tomorrow will be the 1 year aniversary of me meeting mariana and her friends. i cant believe its already been a year. me and her have been through so much. i just wished we were still together. i wish i can re live this time last year. man was it the best summer of my life. it was crackin everyday. and sepcially afer me and her met and started kickin it. even...
Watch
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havent written in a while. ok so i completely stopped talking to everyone i was talking to before. i get the urge to talk to them everyday but i always stop myself. its just time for me to move on and forget about things in the past. ive just been so caught up in work and trying to get my leave approved and shit. its a big headche. well im a little tipsy so im gonna go now.
July 2010
13 posts
Lyrics to Bruised And Scarred : mayday parade
It all goes back to the first kiss It was the one I thought I’d never miss Maybe we were one of the lucky ones Maybe I’m just not quite strong enough This was supposed to be the easy part But breaking down is what I found hard Now I’m wearing this smile that I don’t believe in Inside I feel like screaming She gave me every reason to believe I’d found the one But my...
stupid
its funny how we all know how somethings are gonna go, but yet we dont care cause we like how it feels at the moment. even though if it may hurt us later. love tends to blind us, make us do things, make us feel a way we never felt before and help us escape from reality. but when love leaves us, we fall. we’re depressed and down. but before it all happened, we were fine. crazy how somethings...
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missing her still
alright so no matter who i try and talk to or who i meet, i still compare them to her. shes still in the back of my head. she still drives me crazy!!! ahhh. i wanna talk to her so bad. but she made up her decision already. :( but i really miss her.
yet AGAIN!
alright so i was talking to this girl for a while now. and i like her a lot. but i know it wouldnt work. but i already got so attached. but anyways i asked her if she was talking to anyone ans she said she flirts with a lot of ppl but is kinda talking to this other person. that jus made my heart drop. cause i was really starting to like this person. can anything ever go good for me? can i like a...
holy shit
alright, so i havent written in a while because ive been working a lot and just been plain lazy. but anyways so much shit has happened. alright so first of all im still having the same problems with the same girl. its just the same shit but a different day. but its all good tho cause im leaving it in the past. as much as it hurts, i just cant keep goin on with it. its gonna stop here. in fact i...
“Life’s simple, you make choices and you don’t look back”
just a little of how i feel
i love you mariana, more than anything. and you mean so much to me. not a day goes by with me not thinking about you. somedays your all i can think about. me and you have been through so much in so little time. we’ve had so many great times that ill never forget. your the only girl that continues to drive me crazy without even trying. your the only girl that i am still so madly in love with....
done
so im done with this bullshit for good. starting a new page in my book. fuck it. her lost.
thoughts
i need to keep myself busy so i can keep my mind off of her. i need to hurry up and start woring shift again. but even on shift i keep thinking of her. what in the hell is wrong with me? and whats gonna suck is my 4 day weekend after this weeks worth of working. man im soo confused on what to do. im lost. i just need to keep doing me. stop looking in the past. stop wanting what i cant have. stop...
should i or shouldnt i?
ok so for the past week or so, i havent talked to her. the last time i talked to her was the day i asked her to call me. she then asked if i could call her instead so that i would be able to wake her up. so i did call her that morning and she didnt pick up. i called her multiple times but still no answer. i even texted her and still got no response. so i was a little angry at her. then she decides...
“I’m the author of my life. Unfortunately, I’m writing in pen, which...”
June 2010
23 posts
dont understand
i dont understand. like i asked if she could call me in the morning and she said yeah. then she asked for me to call her in the morning so that i could wake her up. so i called her multiple times in the morning and got now answer. i also txted her and got no response. i then called her later in the day and still go no answer. so i gave up and said fuck it. guess im not that important. but anyways...
song hella fits
“Better That We Break” I never knew perfection til I heard you speak, and now it kills me Just to hear you say the simple things Now waking up is hard to do And sleeping is impossible too Everything is reminding me of you What can I do? It’s not right, not OK Say the words that you say Maybe we’re better off this way? I’m not fine, I’m in pain It’s harder everyday Maybe we’re better...
all over again
so this past week ive been trying to keep my mind off of her and it was some ehat working. i mean every now and then i think about her or reminisce about the past but other than that i thought i was doing pretty good. but all of a sudden today she messaged me on facebook. as much as i didnt wanna answer, i couldnt help myself. then we talked on the phone and what not. now i feel like i did all...
haha
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Me and Mayotte's convo
me: aye lets go bar hopping
mayotte: now?
me: its 12:00pm and im in bed u idiot, i meant tommorrow
mayotte: i work days the next day and have to get up at 3am
me: so?
mayotte: alright, being hung over on shift sounds good to me
HAHAHAHAHAHA i cant believe we’re military police officers
old letter #1
hey babe. im really sorry if i over reacted over you falling asleep. i know it may seem like im being selfish and im sorry. i just felt like so much shit. like yesterday had to been the worst. i hella missed you and all i could think about was you. everything just reminded me of you. and it sucked. and i just really wanted to talk to you cause i missed you so much. i love you more than anything in...
old letter #2
hey babe. i us tried calling you but your a butt and are asleep right now. but anyways i us called one of my friends who us left today and he said that our orders are going to change forsure. he was lucky and got to stay here in yongson. but the other guys are in area 4 down further south which is pretty nice. but im hoping i don’t get stationed in area 1 up at the DMZ. im hella scared and...
old letter #3
hey babe. well its 10:22 pm on thursday. and im sitting here in my barracks room. i cant sleep so im writing this letter. haha. my roomates are all sleeping right now. but we have to wake up hella early tommorrow to turn in our linen and shit cause were leaving. im hella nervous for tomorrow. im hella hoping and praying i stay here in yongson. or at least go to camp humphrey down further...
old letter #4
hey wsup kid. its been a while since we last talked. truthfully, i have no idea what happened between us. everything happened so fast and we really didn’t talk about anything. now it seems like we don’t know each other or never did. kinda sucks. well i’ve jus been thinking about u lately. and missing you more than ever. im in the field right now and have been for the past week....
